I always thought of blogs as being narcissistic, business related, or as my sister's, a way of keeping in touch or memorializing.

But, by necessity, I am learning a lot about myself. I find I need to get my thoughts out, and it helps me to know that someone else will read them. So I have created this little space for myself, to express the things I have trouble saying (be it emotional or physical trouble), to share what I'm going through, and what I'm learning through it.

I absolutely welcome comments. It's nice to know how people relate to what I'm saying.
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Thursday, 17 February 2011

On Choosing This Forum

I have conversations in my head.

In them, I discover wonderful ways of communicating, of telling you exactly how I've been feeling. But when I see you, I can't say the words. They get stuck. They won't come out. I'm too tired. We're having a lovely conversation about unrelated things. I don't want to burden you. I don't know if you will react like you did when the conversation was in my head.

So the words stay in my head.

Until I write them down. And that I do. Often. But they stay in my journals, isolated and secreted away where nobody will see them. And I've decided that's not healthy, for them, or for me. 

When I first fell ill, my sister told me to do this. She said, you should write a blog. Get things out. But I wasn't ready. I was scared - I didn't know what was happening, or how long it would last, or even what it was. I hadn't come close to coming to terms with being ill. I thought (I'm sorry, bloggers!) that blogging was for people who have something to sell, some expertise to share, who are narcissistic and want the world to know they exist, or who are looking for ways to memorialize and share things (like my niece and nephew's childhoods).

Things have changed, and I think she's right. So I am taking the conversations public.

I don't know who, if anyone will read this, and that doesn't seem to matter too much right now. I just need to know that my words are going somewhere, and not staying locked up in my head and in my journals anymore. 

Fly little words, fly!


  1. I think you are absolutely right. Let your words fly and let them tell us what you have in your mind, so we learn and we can be with you. Set yourself free your words will never burden us. We love you.

  2. I love the idea of your Blog! I will be an avid reader! It will keep us all sane!


  3. I will fly right along with your words!!!!!

  4. The sound of your voice, even in print, is soothing and wonderful. You have more inner strength than almost anyone I know. Take your time. Heal, love, sing when you have the energy, and hug Eduardo.

  5. Dos agradecimientos:
    1) Por darme a leer la teoría de las cucharas, que me parece muy inspiradora.
    2) Por hacerme participar por primera vez en un blog.
    Creo que la forma en que nos inspiras demuestra la voluntad con la que vas a enfrentar esta etapa y salir adelante muy pronto.