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I always thought of blogs as being narcissistic, business related, or as my sister's, a way of keeping in touch or memorializing.

But, by necessity, I am learning a lot about myself. I find I need to get my thoughts out, and it helps me to know that someone else will read them. So I have created this little space for myself, to express the things I have trouble saying (be it emotional or physical trouble), to share what I'm going through, and what I'm learning through it.

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Tuesday, 15 January 2013

Slowing down

Last time, I wrote about how I would love to find a way to slow down when life is speeding up around me. I am super happy and proud to report that I did it! In fact, I was sure it had been at least a month since I blogged, and that I'd been off Facebook for several weeks. Turns out I'm ten days short of a month, and my fb hiatus lasted at most a week.

That's how slow I've taking things.

The most wonderful part of all of this, is that it's all in my head. No really, it's all in how I choose to approach the situations in which I find myself. Which means that part of it is actually in my control! What an incredible discovery that was for me.

I realized while my son was with dad and stepmom for Christmas that there was no way I could maintain my level of functionality (which was pretty low already, if you recall) and feed him - metaphorically and literally speaking - through the school holidays. I also realized that I was feeling like it was a chore to be online, that I was starting to feel like I needed to know what was going on, and who was saying what, and where the zeitgeist among my friends was going. And you know what? I realized that was making me more tired, because I was pushing myself to stay online when really, I needed to be resting.

So guess what? This is so exciting - I did something about it! It seems I really am learning my lessons and more importantly, I'm able to translate those lessons into action - changing habits, especially those that have to do with our approach to life, is really really tough. And I am doing it. I'm so proud of myself.

I actually - gasp! - reached out and asked for help. My boy and I moved in with my parents for the rest of the school break. We came back to the house to feed the hedgie, and spent the rest of the time doing a lot of nothing. And you know what? I actually enjoyed the sort-of-self-imposed internet limits, the company, and best of all, I had a peaceful holiday season.

And it was all in how I chose to see things. I took care of us by letting someone else take care of us. I allowed the ups and downs of family life to pass by. I chose not to do all kinds of fun things, and I carefully selected where to put my small cache of energy. It was lovely.

I hope you entered the new year with as good a feeling as I did... Happy 2013!

4 comments:

  1. Awesome! I, too, haven't been blogging nearly as much as I used to. I have, on the other hand, been sleeping more, and getting more little jobs done, and spending more time reading to my kids. Kudos for having the self discipline to do it!

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    1. The self-discipline I developed as a Montessori child? Heheheheh. Had to get that in there :)

      Thanks, crunchy, and glad you've been getting more sleep too - makes all the difference in the world.

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  2. I am glad that you are continuing to learn how to take care of you. Much love.

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    1. Always, D, always! Love you too.

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